Your fault lay in always trying to please people. It gets tiring too, after a while. And when that happens, you snap. And get derailed.
Look at me when you feel hopelessly lost. Your strength has always been your resilience. You may whine; you may rant. That’s all right. They are outlets when you know you can’t hold them in anymore. You may stumble; you may fall. But you’ve always picked yourself up afterward.
Just focus on the goal. Do not allow yourself to be dissuaded by setbacks; they are merely temporary. Even you must admit that despite the long and hard climb, you’re still here.
What you want will be yours if you just believe.
Quieta non movere.